The Healing Path

the pathI’m not sure if you’ll be able to see it in this photo, but there is a path in my backyard.  I drew a red small line along it.  Over the 5 years I’ve lived here, the path was made by my dog, Holiday.  She would run down the steps of the deck and over to the west side of the house where she could watch the comings and goings of….everyone.  Always alert and curious, she wore the grass and the dirt down.  In the summer, it is usually a dirt path, but we seeded it in the fall and although there is grass there, it’s only half the height of the grass on either side of the path.  The seedling grass was not full height before the winter.

The path is starting to heal now.  As spring comes, I know this path is going to fill in.  And my heart with it.  You see, the reason I haven’t written in so long is that late in January, my sweet girl became ill suddenly.

Holiday
My sweet Holiday. Came to us from Blue Ridge Boxer Rescue in 10/14/2007, left us on 2/3/2015.

After a couple of days and trips to the vet, we knew it was both futile and painful to hold her here.  And so I made the decision to let her go.

I’ve lost other pets before.  People equate it to losing a child.  Children grow up and leave you.  Dogs only grow closer.  And during this last 5 years when I worked from home, this dog was never more than a few feet away from me.  My constant companion.  My friend.  My heart.  I grieve for her still.  And  when I see the path healing outside, I know that my heart is healing too. And as the path returns to full luster, I will too—at least as much as people can see.

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6 thoughts on “The Healing Path

  1. Nancy,
    I truly understand how you feel, shortly after Thanksgiving, I lost my little poodle of almost 18 yrs of age had he lived until Valentine’s day in 2015. I raised him from a baby, he was my shadow, and he was so funny as when he thought it was bedtime, he went to bed, and if I didn’t come on within a reasonable time , he would come back into the living room and stand there and just look at me as if to say “aren’t you going to bed yet?” This too has been a hard few months for me, even tho I have the girls “poodles” that are with me constantly , my only son passed on 12/30/2014. As you say, each day gets better and we both have so many lovable memories to make us smile and cry.. We will get better with time. I have gotten back to my sewing machine and making tops and finishing tops.

  2. Hi Nancy – I’m sorry to hear about your sweet Holiday. It’s so hard to lose a special pet – they don’t judge us, or shun us like people can do.
    We lost a very special cat, Viggo, a few years ago, and while we’ve had replacement cats, none of them have ever claimed a space in my heart like Viggo did. Hope that knowing that Holiday isn’t suffering gives you some comfort.

  3. I’m really sorry for your loss. I know how hard it is to let them go. I believe your family pet is sitting besides you still.

  4. So sorry about your dog. We lost one of ours, after 13 years, Jan 2014. We are finally getting a new dog, and new companion for our other dog, this weekend. I know what a hole it leaves in your heart and life. Certain animals just dig in deep into our hearts.

  5. I’m so sorry for your loss. We lost our two older dogs last year within a month of each other. One I was especially close to and Molly’s leaving let a big hole. Two months later I found Cody a 10 year old Shitzu at the local animal shelter. He’d been there over 6 weeks and was in such bad condition when he arrived they had to shave his fur to the skin. Cody needed us as much as we needed him. And he was housebroken, good natured and so full of play. He brought a lot of sunshine back to our house and I’m sure your new one will also.

  6. Bless you for rescuing Holiday when she needed you and giving her such a happy home. And bless you for letting her go when it was time. That is the hardest thing to do. Remember the bumper sticker that says “who rescued who?” – it says it all.

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